Paperwork, meeting and money

I have been feeling quite anxious over the last few days. We received our adoption manual from Lifeline and it consists of 174 pages of information to read and fill out!! Yikes! Jeff and I are driving to Birmingham on Monday to meet with our Lifeline social worker, then on Tuesday we are going to Nashville to meet our homestudy social worker. Since the agency we are using is in Alabama, we have to get another agency to do our homestudy. What that means is two applications, two application fees and it looks like double sets of paperwork. The anxiety isn't so much the paperwork. My job consists of mostly paperwork, and I can handle that just fine. However, the money situation has me stressed. After our meeting in Alabama, we have to send our first payment to the adoption agency. Then after completing our second application and meeting with the local agency doing the homestudy, we have to send in an application fee along with the homestudy fee. While I feel really good about using Lifeline Adoption Agency, I did not consider that some of the fees would be doubled. I am really struggling with how this is all going to work out...trying to figure out where to get extra money and how in the world we are going to come up with over $30,000 in the next year. I keep reminding myself that I need to trust God. I know this is true, but I often let my mind have control. There are ways to get grants and no interest loans, but we can't apply for those until we have a completed homestudy. That brings me back to my current concern...over the next week we need alittle over $3000 just to move on to the next step...which is the homestudy. Anyway, I am writing all this to say, please pray for us. Pray for God to help me to trust Him. I know with everything in me that we are suppose adopt and my heart aches every day of waiting. I know that I am going to have to let God have this situation, but it is really hard right now. Please pray!